So sick of

people who are always all "woe as me". Im so sick of giving out advice and them making excuses. Im so sick of them ALLOWING and to keep allowing misery.

I dont understand why people CHOOSE to be miserable. Its really hard for me to fathom this.

Im also really sick of having to keep helping the same people over and over again. They wear me out.
When do you reach the point of not helping them anymore? When do you know that you can walk away? Without feeling guilty?

ugh its such a catch 22 with me. I want to walk away. I want to throw my hands up in the air. I want to scream and shout at these people until they listen. REALLY listen.

But at the same time, I do still care..and I hate seeing them like that.

Ive lost a hell of a lot in my life. More then 1 person should. And sure, that may seem biased or that a lot of people have, but I really have. And I dont consider a lot of the people I talk to as "friends". I choose my "friends" carefully.

So when these "friends" act this way.. it so tiring on so many levels. I know we all have our moments.. that we are all get down on our luck and feel like the world is against us. But seriously..to keep repeating the same shit over and over again.. KNOWING that it makes you miserable..knowing that it causes you pain.. you just become a sadist. You just become miserable all the time.. and I end up saying the same shit over and over and over again.

Im tired. So very tired of always being the one. Of always being the one that is there. But its like I cant stop.

Ok, so this has turned into me venting more then anything.

So anyways, Im done.. I dont know what else to say..